Try drawing subconsciously then. Watch a few videos of Grace or whoever it is, but instead of trying to focus on her, just sort of zone out while watching her. Then go and draw the first thing that comes to mind. I'm not an artist by any means, but when I draw, I don't think. I just am.
Do you still have the one of Joan sticking up her middle finger? I'd love to see it.

I bet she was the original bad-ass. There are so many doubts over who was the first, but there's no doubt in my mind it wasn't anyone who was famous in the 60s.
I did write to Grace, and I actually am lucky enough to have sent her the drawing I shared and a stuffed panda I bought her.

But no, I was informed by someone that she doesn't welcome fan-mail since she doesn't write back anymore. I'm sure she still enjoys the sentiment, though, so don't worry.

And Cyndi and Grace both are who I credit for helping me out so much. Both the symbolization's are relatively similar, though in Cyndi's I didn't necessarily draw anything because of symbolism, but because I wanted there. Cyndi made me happy, and made the darkness lighter for me. The colorfulness in the picture represents that...the happiness, colorfulness of life and love. She helped me out through some of the worst times in my life, and if it weren't for her, I'd have never been so open to who I am. If it weren't for Cyndi, I'd have never found Grace. I'm lucky to have both of them in my life.
Grace did help me out on a spiritual journey that Cyndi didn't necessarily provide me, though. And regardless of anything, I'll always love her for that. I really admire her.