The Barbara Rowes book was really hard to find, but my friend in New York sent it to me 2 years ago. It's a very insightful book if you're curious about the more emotional side to Grace's life. And there's also a lot more information about her pre-1960s years, as well...like her childhood. That part of her life is so mysterious, anyways, lol.
I mean, I'm sure Grace didn't go through life feeling ugly and miserable. I'm sure she was happy or relatively happy with herself and her life. And given that she had so much sex with people and that she went after a modeling job, I'm sure she didn't see herself as a total ugly duckling either. I guess her insecurity with herself didn't go so far as to debilitate her from doing what she wanted. So I'm not trying to make it out like she sees herself as this horribly ugly person.
Though nowadays, I honestly can't tell you how she views herself. From the sounds of it, she doesn't like it too much, since she hates the camera and says in her autobiography that she sometimes looks in the mirror and goes "Blah!" Though I think compared to many others her age, Grace is supermodel material
. And she still has that smile that makes me melt.